Quit lying to yourself.
There is no "my truth.”
There is THE truth and nothing else.
You either are...
Or you aren't.
It either is...
Or it isn't.
Reality isn't a spectrum with nuance in the middle.
Most people believe it is.
...but most people also end up with a life that's mediocre and unfulfilling because of their inability to tell themselves the truth about their own shortcomings.
Learn to align yourself with reality and disconnect yourself from your personal feelings about it.
Only then can you start making progress.