You wanting, wishing and hoping for it to be easy is what makes it so miserable for you.
If you just accepted this reality the path would get a lot fucking easier.
You don’t completely understand the rules … and it sets a false expectation that sets off a chain of negative events that end in:
Frustration.
Anger.
Pain.
Bitterness.
Easy will never be a reality for anyone seeking an exceptional life.
Just accept it.
Once you accept it you make room for more happiness on the journey.
Now it’s just about the work.
It is what it is.
You know it’s always gonna be hard.
Now what?
You either will or you won’t.
I hope you will.